I thought I did forget about you, that i did the right thing by moven on and try to live a new life where you don't exist. I didn't think about you the last 3 weeks, finally free from you, your smile, your voice, your joke, the way you speak to me ...
No more memorys, no more songs, no more crazy laughs. You was the only personne who can make me laught wihle im having the worst day of my life, you know or at least you knew me like i thought i knew you.
we shared words, time, laughs, songs, nights together but now you belong to an other girl, even thinking about you its no longer my right. It's true I'm alive but I'm barely breathing. I did lost you, I didn't knew that I will feel that much pain all over again. It's a broken heart but I feel all my body hurts. I can't take it anymore, it hurts so much. I hope that I have a gun so I can shoot myself so I won't feel that pain over and over again.
I know time will take care of me and that broken heart will beat again, feel again and he will love the life all over again, but right now you are the only one that matter. You probably think about me as one of your ex girl-friend or maybe worst you don't think about me anymore.
Why my mother like she showed me how to walk and tolk, why the didn't tell me that that little innocent heart will be broken over and over, why she didn't forbet me from folling in love like she forbet me from playing with fire even playing with fire don't hurt as much as love hurt.
Seeing you happy kills le, it really hurts like hell. All I need now it's a worm armes of someone who really loves me and care about me and understand me but in this world no one cares at least not about me, no one try even to lisent to me when I talk so all I have to do is write my pain abd drow a smile on my face, Hope for the best and the most important thing is keeping faith on GOD because he created me and only him can and will take care of me.